Lovenox

I still have to do Lovenox shots and I really fucking hate it.  (yes, the word "fucking" is necessary here.)  I don't hate it because it especially hurts or because it the shots are particularly bothersome.  I hate it because the whole point of these stupid shots was to keep my baby alive.  That is the only reason I was on the medication.  A lot of freaking good that did.

I am supposed to take them now to keep me alive; to prevent a blood clot in me.  I still don't want to do the stupid, fucking shots.   It's just another reminder (like I would ever forget) that the initial reason for the shots has left me.  That my baby is gone.....again...