When I am down and depressed, I feel so alone and lonely. The stupid, evil voices in my head tell me that no one cares about me, that I am alone, that people are sick and tired of all my crap and the shit that keeps happening to me (I mean how long can you feel bad for someone, right?)
This is such a complete load of bullshit! Because then I will get a Facebook message from someone I only met one time who remembers me and thinks about me. A friend will start a fundraiser (just because she is awesome) and people donate $310 in under 24 hours. What?!?! My eye doctor will send me a card. My plastic surgeon's office sent me flowers! People that I haven't been that nice to for whatever reason (founded or not) send me messages.
These (sometimes) small things make me realize that the voices in my head feed me complete and utter shit. Shut up, stupidheads.
I love you all.
Don't listen to those voices, they lie!! More people care about you than you will probably ever know. :)
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Hugs. True friends are there through thick and thin, they are there for us when we act like bitch faces or act like angels. Sometimes they hover in the background of our lives and sometimes they are there front and center. I'm so sorry for the fuck ups that I did that hurt you. Even though I'm hovering in the background I still care for you as much as I did when we messaged each other countless times an hour. In my heart you will always be my friend. Whenever you need me I'm always here for you. ~C
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