I'm feeling pretty insane these days. Decision making is impossible. I flip flop back and forth between the extreme extremes over any decision. And I am not talking about stupid little decisions like paper or plastic or whether I should have a greasy burger or salad for lunch.
I go from firmly believing one extreme to firmly deciding on the
other. Yes, another pregancy ASAP to hella no I will never do this to
my family again. I want to close my "business" (and just...be a mom?) to I
am going to hit it harder and make it more and more successful. I hate
myself, I am a piece of trash not worth the oxygen I breath to I am a
decent mother and wife and can do it all.
I flip flop from day to day and sometimes in the same day multiple times. It makes me feel so lost to not even know what I want. My mind confuses me and makes everything more difficult. Please Crazy Brain, give this lady a break.